Day 9 Entry

Today, our body was still doing its thing. Dissolving last old remaining tensions. I felt the pain again and I just felt a few muscles twitches when my mind was wondering somewhere else then here and now.

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See, if you have lived in disharmony with your nature for so long, your body, in this meditation process has to recalibrate itself with more and more truth, since you made that choice to look at yourself honestly.

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Pain is a messenger. Its not punishment, tho it can feel punishing in the sense that its not plesurable, yet, in what you feel when you sit in meditation. But thats just the beginning of it all.

Wait till you start feeling pleasurable sensations such as relaxation, the feeling of your body fully sinking to the ground and not resisting it and your body finally stopping to fight itself... You will feel like everything else was a transitory bleep in your existence leading up to that moment...

Treat this as a short purgatory of burning anything holding you back, before meeting a life where dreams become reality by alignment with your nature and life itself.

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I felt 3 times for a few seconds interval each during today's sit, a sort of relaxing warmth near the left side of my belly, below it. Think it was just above my left ass cheek, maybe the psoas muscles. Looks like some minor unchencling happenned and some pressure got released.