Day 4 Entry

Today's meditation sit was interesting. Instead of fighting the sensations of agony and praying to fast forward till the end and be done with it, I took it one breath at a time. I kept feeling the sharp pain, and as soon as my mind wandered to project itself at the of the meditation, I breathed in and out.

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I saw the mechanisms of the mind, when unguarded and unsupervised, can lead to self-imposed misery.

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I asked, if my body can create sensations of suffering, can it also create sensations of relaxation & just be with what is? It absolutely can.

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I also noticed the way my belly rose during the last 45 minutes of meditation when the pain sensation felt sharp. I wasn't breathing fully in throught the sensations such as pain which was still overtaking my ability to fully relax because I was still somewhat resisting it.